Time: 2:50pm
What: 10 minutes walking meditation / 20 minutes seated practice
Focus: First Foundation / Exercise 5 - 6 (Sati-)
Walking meditation indoors. Inhale - right foot. Exhale - left foot. Awareness of the sole of the foot on the floor. Of the bones of the foot. Habit of rolling out towards the outer edge of the foot while walking. Moments of feeling unbalanced. Small amount of dizziness as I chose to walk a relatively small circular pattern (through living room and kitchen). Thoughts popping up less frequently than in seated practice. Of course, still popping up (of course!). Less of an urge to control the breath. Slow movement allowed for slow natural breathing.
Seated practice peaceful. Felt small amount of resistance / laziness after taking two days off of formal practice. Once seated on the cushion, felt relief peace calm. Realized that taking a deep breath into thought/storyline is perhaps a subtle form of force or violence in thinking. Decided to touch thinking gently and be slower in redirecting focus back to breath. Allow breath to be natural and feel breathing once thought dissolves (take the wind out of it's sails instead of jamming the steering wheel in another direction). Hmmmm...
1 comment:
Ohhh, I LIKE these metaphors.... Yes, you've come to see that sometimes, noticing and returning can be aggresively based upon aversion. Now, you have learned how to do so with compassionate wisdom!
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