Second half-day of mindfulness. Wake up to noble silence for three hours. Write letter of resignation, corresponding email, swept the floor, wiped the table, formal practice, hugged my frightened girlfriend (silently) in the thunderstorm, arranged and added to the altar, made coffee, wrote journal entry. Bong. 1pm. Noble silence over.
Time: 11:56am
What: 30 minutes asana / 20 minutes seated practice
Focus: Awareness at nostrils - "In/Out"
I think sitting has taken to being a sketch comedy routine. Sat down to Cherry bomb by Joan Jett & L7 playing through my head. Ch ch ch ch ch ch ch ch cherry bomb! Focus of watching breath at the nostrils while the busyness of change whipped through the mind. Change (example: leaving a job to start a new) is like breaking up with an old lover. You are comfortable in that which is familiar and yet you realize that it's no good for you. A little bit of freedom mixed with some heartbreak. Possibilities of the unknown are frightening... And they bustle through the mind as I watch (without preference or judgment) with breath awareness as a heavy anchor. A little bit of impatience showed up in practice... Had to look at the clock once instead of breathing and waiting for the alarm (four minutes left). Continued sitting, watching breath, until... BONG... done... yet was no longer concerned with getting up.
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